The Inner Workout™

In The Beginning Once upon a time, as a baby, love was felt and experienced all around me. Childhood experiences started to take me to other emotions such as fear, sadness, loneliness and sometimes feeling like a bad little girl. I would feel this unsettling sensation in my tummy... like butterflies wanting to be set free, but I didn’t know what to do or how to talk about it. When I started school, the excitement of many new kids and a whole world of activities was almost frightening. It didn’t help, I am sure, that there were T.V. cameras everywhere as the local television station and newspaper reporters wanted to cover the Hoffman triplets’ first day of school. We felt like show freaks... mom dressed us all the same, the other kids didn’t come near us. Our tears spoke quickly to our mother and she never dressed us alike again. The anxieties of making friends, and having good marks added more stress and I learned how to shove away my own feelings of not feeling good enough and fear of not being accepted. Childhood memories are our personal experiences held in the body. I see that I have relived these experiences over and over again, dressed up differently with different people and taking me back to the initial place in me where a perception about myself was formed. School days continued to take me down the halls of fear and I can remember that every once in a while something would come around a corner and create a drama. Personal experiences would take me into a wild emotional release or push me into the corners of my mind leaving me withdrawn or speechless. Life continued to lift me high with emotional excitement and confidence or take me down to the darkness of self-doubt and fear, again and again. When everything felt good I was comfortable, but when things were uneasy I didn’t know how to take care of me. I wanted everyone else to be happy and I tried my best to be and do what I thought would be approved of. Becoming an adult gave me a lot more independence and the scope to achieve the successes to make me feel accepted. Life disappointments and struggles would constantly force me to look at my self and my choices. My perceptions were constantly being shattered and I see now that I was continually being awakened to the truth as I faced my fears and self-doubt issues. My dreams started to turn to nightmares and my physical body started to wake me up to take responsibility. Personal loss and illness created the necessary turning point where I faced the reality of my life and had nowhere else to go but inside to feel the sweet pain of truth. This awakening gifted me with The Inner Workout™. I thought it was just for me... I didn’t know that in time I would be sharing it with you, and with the world. This incredible process supports me daily in connecting with my emotional body and releasing the lies that stop me from feeling peace and love in my heart and my life. When I found this important life tool I committed to taking care of myself each day so that I would show up healthy in my mind, body and spirit. With this shift in me my relationships became healthy and the peace that I experienced manifested more love taking me to healing. As I acknowledged and released the dense emotional weight on the shoulders of my heart, the fear, resentments, anger, hurts, disappointments and self-doubt that I was living with dissolved, creating the connection to the love and peace waiting for me. I finally became aware of my part in my struggles and forgiveness set me free in my heart. My personal history needed to be resolved in me and The Inner Workout™ became my consistent exercise that takes me to my awareness and takes me each day to the bridge of emotional freedom. Eight years ago I started writing Pocket Guide to your HeartTM, the first of my trilogy of books. I was emotionally, physically and spiritually on my journey of getting well because of this formula that kept me emotionally fit. When I wrote book number one, I wanted to share my process that gave me the daily practice of taking care of me, releasing my history that I had shoved away so deep inside, and the personal connection to self that kept me authentic and truthful each day. This sacred place in me opened my life to conscious living and making healthier choices for myself and my family. I tried very hard to step out of the way and to let go of control as peaceful love wove through me and into my relationships. Attracting my beloved husband Bruce was no accident and the plan unfolded showing us both a safe place together to hear the voice of our emotional wounds and inspire each other to be all that we could be. My inner support system was carefully designed as I expanded personally and professionally. I wanted every woman and man to experience the beloved in them and share it with another. Living healthy in a relationship was up to me and I then attracted a man who wanted the same for himself. My self-discovery within this union with Bruce allowed me the opportunity to let go of my past struggles that kept me living in unhealthy relationships. Letting go is what life is all about. Don’t get me wrong... it doesn’t mean that life is easy... it means that when struggle comes along, I have a process to help me find my way through the pain or fear... allowing the ease of love and peace to filter into me and attract the life I want. Book number two, Pocket Guide to your Heart for RelationshipsTM, came from experiencing belovedness with Bruce and the journey within the pages of this book can help you recognize relationship types that can create separation and false perceptions about love and pain. This book also aims to inspire you to find the beloved within so that you can recognize, inspire, attract and live it. Many family struggles and life crises have knocked on the door of my heart taking me on the bridge to feel pain, joy, love and fear. I thank God each day for all of them, every minute of it! Maybe not while I am in the depths of despair or under the heaviness of darkness, but after the storm, as I’m covered by luminous light, my heart opens again. The Inner Workout™ allows me, over and over again, to experience myself fully as I take responsibility for the pain and release it when I am ready. I let go and forgive so that I am free to love again or to find my way to the next day. Even if I don’t know anything or where I am going, I can then say, “I am here”. Here inside me, to face my truth and not deny myself the opportunity to see the bigger picture; the picture of myself without blame or judgment, sitting in the center of me, in the center of the heart of my life; living in the center of all my desires in peace...Heaven on earth. I would like to share with you my stories and the personal pathways to emotional freedom. The Inner Workout™ exercise has been such a great gift to open me to the awareness that takes me to everything I am in my life... and all that I desire. I am healthy and I am grateful for the choices I make for health I am joyous, loving and healthy in my relationships I am living with abundance and prosperity I am in peace I am love Abundance, peace, love, joy and prosperity cannot become our reality until we shift our inner reality. To become emotionally fit is our responsibility and taking care of the emotions that keep us in negative living are ours to acknowledge. When I acknowledge and release my fears, my pain and my self-doubt I can then be in gratitude and know that everything I desire comes from faith and love, trusting that it is here already. I am grateful for every day and all of my gifts from God and the universe. I have been in conscious relationship with my emotions for 20 years now, teaching me how to forgive. This place of forgiveness creates the opening for my peace and love…in this place I can affect my world.